12 Zambians share their tales as HIV medicine run out : Goats and Soda : NPR

From the pulpit, Reverend Billiance Chondwe counts the empty seats.

“We’re near 300 [worshipers] however these days we’re solely lower than 150. Persons are sick at house,” says Chondwe — or Pastor Billy as everybody calls him — as he greeted congregants on a Sunday in early April on the entrance to his church, the Somone Group Middle, a department of the Pentecostal Holiness Church in Zambia.

Persons are falling ailing as a result of the U.S.-funded clinics the place they obtained their HIV medicines and care have immediately been shuttered. The workers is gone. The electrical energy has been shut off. Some sufferers have already run out of their day by day drugs that hold HIV at bay — and so they have began to really feel the bodily penalties of the virus surging again.

The Trump Administration, in January, abruptly halted the overwhelming majority of U.S. international help in gentle of their America First agenda. Officers stated that lifesaving assist — corresponding to HIV medicines — would proceed to circulate. However the actuality on the bottom reveals in any other case. An untold variety of individuals with HIV have merely and immediately misplaced entry to their treatment.

A shuttered USAID clinic in Kitwe, Zambia. The clinic offered free HIV medicines and remedy to the group till it was immediately closed in late January. Folks nonetheless present up on the clinic for his or her medication solely to seek out the lights out and the workers not there.

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That’s largely as a result of the halting of international help and cancelling of packages crippled the methods that enabled individuals to get their AIDS medicines. And, of the small variety of packages which are technically allowed to proceed, many report not being paid by the U.S. authorities and, thus, having to shut their doorways and lay off staff. The State Division, which oversees international help, didn’t reply to requests for remark.

In 2024, Zambia acquired $240 million from the U.S. to assist HIV/AIDS work, together with prevention, remedy and distribution of medicines. NPR visited and spoke to many on this southern African nation who’ve expressed nice frustration that the cuts to assist got here with no warning and no transition plan. However additionally they acknowledged that their nation had turn out to be depending on international assist and that the federal government must do extra to fill the huge gaps left by the sudden U.S. withdrawal.

“The principle sufferer that’s paying the worth of this disruptive resolution to chop the U.S. assist funding is the atypical Zambian individual residing in poverty,” says Chris Zumani Zimba, a Zambian political scientist affiliated with the College of Central Africa. In accordance with the World Financial institution, greater than 60% of the inhabitants there lives in poverty. And, greater than 10% of adults within the nation have HIV — half the speed of a decade in the past.

A research out this month in The Lancet estimated what would occur if the U.S. doesn’t proceed its flagship HIV/AIDS program that is been pivotal to reversing the downward pattern in life expectancy resulting from AIDS. The researchers from Oxford College and elsewhere discovered that half 1,000,000 extra kids will die of AIDS within the subsequent 5 years in sub-Saharan Africa and practically 3 million extra African kids will probably be orphaned by AIDS. In lots of Zambian communities, individuals say these numbers will quickly be greater than only a forecast.

Moms and youngsters, husbands and wives, docs, truck drivers and non secular leaders are all grappling with the fallout of the U.S. slicing assist. Listed here are tales of these impacted in only one a part of one nation: Zambia’s resource-rich Copperbelt Province.

Dorcas Mwanza, 10, took the final of her HIV medicines eight days in the past. She’s developed a fever and chills, among the many first signs individuals expertise once they go off HIV remedy.

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Dorcas and Theresa Mwanza: Her ‘jovial’ daughter is now ‘depressing’

“Jovial.”

That is the phrase Theresa Mwanza, 32, favored to make use of to explain her 10-year-old daughter, Dorcas. When Dorcas would get house from faculty, she’d usually play home, pretending to arrange nshima — a thick conventional porridge — for her imaginary household. “I am pondering she’ll be very family-oriented when she grows up,” says Theresa in Bemba, a neighborhood language spoken in elements of Zambia.

It is now been eight days since each Dorcas and her mother, Theresa, took the final of their HIV medicines.

A single mother and an solely baby, they’ve at all times taken their medication collectively at 8 p.m. every night time. The change in routine has confused the little woman.

Theresa Mwanza, a single mother, holds an empty bottle of her HIV medication.

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“Prior to now week, she’ll open the tin [where the medicine is kept] and discover that it is empty,” says Theresa. “She’ll run all the way down to the clinic to go and examine if she will be able to gather her treatment. After which she’ll come again house and say, ‘Oh, you might be proper. The clinic is closed. They are not there anymore.’ “

And it looks like their U.S.-funded clinic just isn’t coming again. The doorways of the clinic, which companies over 2,000 HIV sufferers, have been locked because the finish of January, the workers let go and the furnishings largely eliminated. This clinic did not simply present treatment, it additionally offered primary meals since HIV medication can’t be taken on an empty abdomen. Theresa and Dorcas misplaced each.

Up to now, with out their treatment, Theresa feels okay. However Dorcas has developed a fever and chills — and she or he feels weak. Flu-like signs are sometimes one of many first signs after somebody goes off HIV remedy — the extent of virus rises and the physique tries to combat it off.Apprehensive, Theresa now stays house to are inclined to her daughter — who usually rests on a mat by the tree outdoors their house. But it surely means Theresa is not going home to deal with to do laundry and odd jobs, their fundamental supply of revenue.

Theresa Mwanza and her daughter, Dorcas, stand in a area close to their home. After their USAID-funded clinic closed, Theresa tried to get HIV medicines at a government-run clinic however was turned away and informed she wanted to get “course or steering” from that now-shuttered facility.

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Theresa tried to get their medicines at a clinic run by the Zambian authorities. It took an hour to stroll there solely to get turned away. “They hold insisting: ‘You want to get course or steering from the clinic the place you had been on the place you’ll go to subsequent,'” she recollects. However together with her neighborhood clinic closed, Theresa is not positive what to do.

She thinks again to her two sisters who died of AIDS earlier than treatment turned out there — and free with assist from the U.S. “I’m now actually anxious,” she says her daughter. “She’s a really jovial little woman, however she’s been very depressing the previous few days.”

Mary Mayongana: ‘What is going to turn out to be of me?’

Mary Mayongana, 42, sometimes spends her days both on the market promoting greens or in a small household compound she shares together with her household: Her mom, her 4 kids, her two sisters and their kids. “All of us dwell right here as one huge household,” Mary says, talking in Bemba.

Mary Mayongana, 42, is uncertain whether or not her ankle sore is a results of going off her HIV medicines. She says that the ache together with the fatigue she now feels are going to make it onerous to stroll for 45 minutes to achieve the closest clinic after the closure of the U.S.-funded clinic she had beforehand used.

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Now, Mary is confined to that compound. She’s misplaced entry to her HIV remedy and feels weak. She’s additionally developed an itchy rash, a basic signal of going off HIV medicines — it may be a sign that the physique is making an attempt to combat off the resurgent virus and the immune system is weakening. And Mary has one other problem: her ankle is swollen from a painful open sore that continues to unfold.

With out warning, her U.S.-funded clinic closed on January 28 with a cease work order from the Trump Administration. Now the clinic’s well being staff are distributing the remaining provide of medicines amongst all of the sufferers. For greater than two months, Mary hasn’t been in a position to persistently take her HIV treatment. Typically she’s gone as much as 14 days with no HIV treatment in any respect. Proper now, she has a number of drugs and has determined to take them each third day. It is dangerous as a result of her physique may develop resistance to the drug if it isn’t taken day by day. However, Mary says, it is all she has so she wants her provide to final so long as potential.

For greater than two months, Mary hasn’t been in a position to persistently take her HIV treatment. She says she feels weak and has developed an itchy rash.

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There are Zambian authorities clinics that also inventory HIV medicine however they have been so overwhelmed by HIV sufferers from the shuttered U.S.-funded clinics that they have been compelled to ration the treatment, giving out a restricted provide to every affected person. And for Mary, who has no cash for transportation, the federal government clinic appears impossibly far-off. It is a 45-minute stroll on day.

She’s uncertain whether or not her ankle sore is a results of going off her HIV medicines however, she says, the ache and fatigue she feels are going to make it onerous to stroll to the clinic. She thinks it should take her hours every manner. Her mom is urging her to do it anyway — collectively, she says, they’ll take a number of steps, then relaxation.

“I spend quite a lot of time eager about what’s more likely to turn out to be of me, particularly that I am truly seeing myself losing away,” says Mary in a flat, quiet voice. She sits on the cement flooring of her brick house, her head resting in opposition to the wall. “It is actually weighing me down.”

Mary stands outdoors the household compound that she shares together with her mom, her 4 kids, her two sisters and their kids.

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Kabamda Willies and Alice Nyandwa: Distant farmers

When Kabamda Willies observed Alice Nyandwa working within the farm fields in 2018, he instantly knew he wished to marry her. The very first thing he did was to share his HIV standing. “I assumed it could be clever to elucidate to her [that I have HIV] from the very starting,” Willies says, talking in Bemba.

She then informed him, she too is HIV optimistic. They quickly obtained married.

As subsistence farmers in a really distant space, they obtained their medicines from a group well being employee who, for years, would bike to their house with their drugs, delivering a six-month provide. And he may even take their blood whereas sitting of their thatched gazebo after which bike it again to the lab. That immediately stopped when the U.S. shocked the world by halting the overwhelming majority of international help.

Now, Kabamda and Alice go to the closest authorities clinic to get their HIV medicines and assessments. It is a 3- to 4-hour stroll every manner. Nonetheless, they make the journey.

Farmers Alice Nyandwa and Kabamda Willies say that they now should stroll three to 4 hours every approach to a government-run HIV clinic. Even once they get to the clinic, they often cannot get their medicines as a result of the volunteer workers — who used to obtain stipends as a part of U.S. assist — aren’t there anymore.

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“Typically once we get to the clinic, the volunteers that attend to us should not there. So we have to organize to stroll again once more on one other day,” says Kabamda, 63. These volunteers are lacking as a result of a lot of them had acquired a stipend from the U.S. — and that is now dried up.

Even when the clinic is open and the couple can get served, there’s one other drawback: The times once they’d get sufficient drugs to final 6 months are gone. Now, Zambian authorities clinics are rationing HIV medicine. The state clinics did not have warning in regards to the U.S. slicing assist and did not replenish on medicines. So, with the onslaught of latest sufferers, Kabamda and Alice say, they’re being given treatment for simply two weeks. Kabamda says it is onerous to seek out the time to return to the clinic so frequently as a result of “we have to develop our meals to eat.”

Oswell Sindaza: ‘I am transferring like a headless hen’

When Oswell Sindaza was born, the story goes, his mom regarded him over — head to toe — and enthusiastically stated: “All is nicely.” And so, that turned his title: Oswell.

However today, such a cheerful declaration is sorely lacking.

“Now we have over 6,400 [HIV] shoppers, and I am simply alone as a medical individual,” says Oswell Sindaza, a health care provider who used to supervise a workers of 21 nurses, docs, pharmacists and lab technicians that was funded by U.S. international help.

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Sindaza, who’s 44, is a health care provider for HIV/AIDS sufferers. Since 2014, he is been working a venture funded by the U.S. Company for Worldwide Growth which was housed throughout the Wusakile Mine Hospital. Sindaza used to supervise a workers of 21, together with a crew of nurses, docs, pharmacists and lab technicians. The native mining firm paid his wage and so, not like his colleagues,whose salaries had been instantly or not directly paid by U.S. international assist,he survived the funding cuts. However now, he is the one physician left.

“Now we have over 6,400 [HIV] shoppers, and I am simply alone as a medical individual,” says Oswell, including that there is additionally one accountant and one nurse who weren’t funded by U.S. assist. His caseload grows every day as sufferers, determined for HIV medicines, arrive from close by clinics which have been closed.

“We simply give them medicine. We’re not taking good care of the shoppers’ wants, issues like viral load testing, liver operate assessments, kidney operate. We wouldn’t have the capability to do this,” he says. “I am transferring like a headless hen now simply to try to make issues occur.”

He says he worries about all of the sufferers who cannot make it to his clinic — those that dwell too far-off or are in wheelchairs. He is aware of they don’t have any treatment, and he does not know learn how to assist. He says he looks like he is failing his sufferers.

“It is actually, actually draining me,” Oswell says. “I really feel possibly I cannot handle to manage going ahead.”

Brian Chiluba: As soon as sturdy, now ‘weak, weak, weak’

Brian Chiluba, 56, is comfy on the high of a ladder and used to pushing a heavy wheelbarrow filled with paint buckets round. He is a home painter and — with the assistance of HIV treatment, which he is taken for 15 years — he at all times had the power to do his work. However not.

Brian Chiluba has misplaced weight and feels more and more weak since dropping entry to his HIV medicine that he is acquired from a U.S.-funded clinic for the previous 15 years.

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“I really feel weak point — weak, weak, weak,” he says as his voice cracks.

Since early February, when his native U.S.-funded clinic shut down, he is struggled to get his treatment. At first, he managed to acquire a number of drugs right here and there however, now, he is out totally.

Sitting on a picket bench by the window with one in every of his three kids close by, he says he is misplaced quite a lot of weight and looks like all the facility has been drained out of him.

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Brian’s spouse additionally has HIV and has run out of her treatment, too. However, up to now, she says she feels advantageous.

The couple went to a close-by authorities clinic hoping they might be capable to get their medicines refilled. However, they are saying, they had been informed they have to deliver their medical information with a view to register as new sufferers. So they have been going again to their outdated clinic to get their information. Each time they go, it is nonetheless shuttered. And but, he says, they don’t have any alternative however to maintain making an attempt.

“We have to wait till there’s somebody on the USAID facility,” he says.

The Zambian Ministry of Well being didn’t reply to requests for touch upon this coverage.

Brian worries that by the point he will get his medical file and registers at a brand new clinic, it will likely be too late. “I’ll lose my life, and I’ll depart my kids struggling,” he says.

Brian’s spouse — Annie Chiluba, 47 — can be HIV optimistic and has additionally run out of her HIV treatment. She nonetheless feels okay, she says, however she worries about her husband’s worsening well being.

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Geoffrey Chanda: Truck drivers cry for assist

Geoffrey Chanda’s cellphone goes off nearly always. Truck drivers are calling him. “They’re crying,” he says. “‘We have no [HIV] medication. The place do you get [it] from?'”

He has no good reply.

For 15 years, Geoffrey — who’s now 54 — has been working with HIV-positive truck drivers and intercourse staff who hang around round truck stops. After his personal brother died of AIDS, Geoffrey left his job as a miner, saying to himself, ” ‘Let me train others to not get [HIV].’ “

Group well being employee Geoffrey Chanda used to distribute HIV medicines to long-haul truck drivers and intercourse staff at truck stops like this one close to the border of Zambia and the Democratic Republic of Congo.

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As a group well being employee, he would periodically choose up an enormous bag of HIV therapies from a cellular clinic. Then, he’d coordinate with over 200 truck drivers — and much more intercourse staff. Calling and texting them, he’d work out once they’d be passing by way of the border crossing and go meet them to provide them their medicines and ensure they’d all the knowledge they wanted about how to not unfold HIV.

The dusty parking heaps the place Geoffrey spent his days are lined with 18-wheelers, many loaded down with freshly-mined minerals. They pause right here — on the border between Zambia and the Democratic Republic of Congo, close to the city of Chililabombwe — typically for days, ready for permission to cross the border.

It is any such location that public well being specialists have zeroed in on as essential in halting the unfold of HIV. Within the early days of the epidemic in sub-Saharan Africa, the virus fanned out alongside trucking routes as long-haul drivers frequented intercourse staff. Nonetheless immediately in Zambia, HIV is a selected problem alongside the trucking routes.

Lengthy-haul truckers typically pause for days at this truck cease close to the Zambian city of Chililabombwe as they await approval to cross the border into the Democratic Republic of Congo. Distributing HIV medication on trucking routes is essential to stopping the unfold of HIV, say public well being specialists.

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Now, with U.S. assist slashed the particular effort to forestall and include the virus in these scorching spots has stopped, Geoffrey says. He not has the medicines to distribute. He not has his revenue — and, he says, he is struggling to pay for meals. However, he nonetheless picks up the continual string of calls from truck drivers and intercourse staff.

Geoffrey estimates that about 20 of the 200 truck drivers he labored with have known as and informed him they’re beginning to fall ailing with out their HIV medicines. He says one in every of his drivers died in Congo. Within the arcades and bars that line the primary road, Geoffrey has heard it was as a result of the driving force did not have his HIV medication.

“He died in Congo. [And] bringing the physique [back to Zambia], it’s totally costly,” says long-haul truck driver Roi Silunyange, 54, who additionally knew the deceased man.

Zambian trucker Roi Silunyange, 54, stands in a car parking zone at a truck cease close to the border with the Democratic Republic of Congo. He says that he is aware of a fellow truck driver who died whereas in Congo as a result of he ran out of HIV treatment.

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Mwape Shamboko, one other driver who’s 42 and standing close by, used to depend on well being staff like Geoffrey and the U.S.-funded system to get his HIV medicines. He says there was even an emergency quantity any driver or intercourse employee may name if one thing was amiss.

Truck driver Mwape Shamboko, 42, used to rely on well being staff like Geoffrey Chanda to get his HIV medicines.

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“Should you’re not feeling nicely, otherwise you want a provide — possibly your medicines have run out — [we] would name that quantity, and [the community health workers] had been at all times very fast at coming to us and responding to our wants,” Mwape says. “So it was a really, excellent system. We weren’t lacking our medicines.”

Now, he says, the calls go unanswered.

Daliso Tembo and Mary Tembo: ‘We won’t discover peace at night time’

Sleep is difficult to return by within the Tembo family.

Daliso, 49, and Mary, 32, are farmers, rising peanuts and different crops collectively. When night time falls, they’re wracked with fear in regards to the future.

He is HIV-positive and, since his U.S.-funded clinic immediately closed two months in the past, his medicines are working low. Simply 20 days of drugs left. She’s managed to keep away from contracting HIV from her husband by taking a drug from the clinic, often called PrEP, that forestalls the transmission of HIV. However now, all of that’s in query.

Daliso Tembo and Mary Tembo with one in every of their 5 kids.

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“We won’t discover peace at night time. Sleep has escaped us,” says Mary. “We’re asking ourselves: What subsequent? What if? He does not wish to have these conversations, but it surely’s vital that now we have them.”

Mary performs out the worst case state of affairs in her thoughts: “If [Daliso] cannot entry his medicine — and to illustrate he falls ailing and he dies — what then occurs to us as a family? As a result of he is the top of our family. He takes care of us,” she says. “And, if something occurs to me — if I discover myself [HIV] optimistic…” Her voice trails off.

Their fundamental concern is about their 5 kids. The youngest is 2 years outdated and does not perceive what’s taking place. However the older ones are anxious.

“They’re at all times coming to me to say, ‘Give us solutions.’ I at all times inform them, ‘Let’s not have this dialog,'” says Mary. “I do know it isn’t the best factor, however I am actually making an attempt to keep away from it.”

Daliso and Mary went to a close-by authorities clinic however had been informed to return again later when Daliso would have just a few days of HIV drugs left. Mary says that clinic is so overburdened by all of the HIV sufferers who misplaced remedy when the U.S. lower assist, she’s afraid they will not have any medicines left for her husband.

“This alteration has actually devastated me,” Daliso says, his voice stuffed with emotion. “I am a person, however what it has executed, it has actually shattered me.”

Catherine Mwaloe: ‘What [have] I executed to get this sickness?’

When instances are onerous, Catherine Mwaloe turns to music. She pulls out her cellphone and scrolls to the emotional, spiritual songs. Recently, the 16-year-old has been listening to quite a lot of these songs.

Catherine Mwaloe, 16, who contracted HIV from her mom at start, has one month’s provide of HIV medication left. She worries that authorities clinics will cost cash for the medicines, which had been beforehand free.

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From the two-room home — underneath an enormous mango tree — that she shares together with her grandmother, Catherine lets the lyrics of her favourite tune, “Nessa’s Holy Spirit,” wash over her:

“Jesus I would like you to outlive.

Oh come oh! Holy Spirit come oh”

Her grandmother, who has the identical title, says Catherine has been grappling with two questions for which there are not any good solutions.

“She started to ask why she’s taking this treatment, after which I needed to clarify to her that ‘You are HIV optimistic,’ ” says Catherine’s grandmother. The woman obtained the virus from her mom at start however, her grandmother says, “it has been very troublesome to get her to simply accept her state of affairs. She says, ‘What’s it that I’ve executed to get this sickness?’ “

“Holy Spirit come,

Come and have your manner”

Recently Catherine’s query of “why” has been outdated by the query of “how.” How will she get her subsequent spherical of HIV medicines when the well being middle the place she obtained her free HIV medicines was funded by the U.S. and has now shut down. She has one month’s provide left and she or he worries that each one the federal government clinics will cost cash for the medicines.

Catherine and her grandmother maintain fingers outdoors their house.

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“Even when I am going there, they [will] say, we must always purchase medicines. And truly, I am a college woman and I haven’t got cash. And [my grandmother] simply sells some tomatoes in order that she will be able to earn cash to offer for the meals,” Catherine says, in a low, flat voice as a tear traces its manner down her cheek. “I’ve heard that there are numerous hundreds of thousands of individuals going to die.”

As Catherine listens to her music, she says, her dream of turning into a surgeon sooner or later feels as if it will by no means come true.

“Come and do your factor,

Come and be the power when [I] am weak”Â

Reverend Billiance Chondwe: His despair returns

As a baby, Billiance Chondwe did all the things along with his twin sister, Charity. They insisted on only one shared dinner plate. They requested coordinated garments. He performed leap rope together with her, ignoring the taunts of neighborhood kids for enjoying a woman’s sport.

Then — within the late Nineties — once they had been 17, Charity obtained AIDS. Billy nursed her month after month. If he left the home, she would name out for him. He missed faculty to are inclined to her. When she died nearly a yr later, the grief was overwhelming.

Reverend Billiance Chondwe at his house in Kitwe, Zambia.

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“What I felt was: I am alone,” recollects Billy, who’s now 52. “It introduced me to my knees. It introduced me to some extent the place, it doesn’t matter what I can do as a human being, there’s a restrict.”

For years, he could not shake the scent of the illness.

Then, in 2004, issues began to alter. There was an enormous push by the U.S. authorities to get HIV treatment to Zambia, together with dozens of different international locations. Since then, the U.S. has poured practically $7 billion into controlling the HIV epidemic in Zambia, offering free HIV medicines for 1.2 million Zambians.

For Billy, it felt like a weight was lifted. “Despair was taken away,” he says. “Youngsters had hope they may develop [up] with their father.”

After which, earlier this yr, got here the sudden pullout of U.S. assist. In a single day, clinics had been locked and shutters had been bolted shut. All of the docs, nurses, group well being staff and volunteers had been informed to cease working instantly. Sufferers misplaced entry to their information — and, most vital, their medicines.

Reverend Billy is haunted by the reminiscence of individuals dying throughout the top of the AIDS disaster within the Nineties. The latest pullout of U.S. international assist has introduced again emotions of hopelessness and despair.

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Now — at Billy’s department of the Pentecostal Holiness Church in Zambia — he watches his congregation shrink as parishioners keep house, sick or tending to the sick who cannot discover one other supply of HIV medicines.

“Yesterday, I acquired three calls: Two of my members — they’re admitted within the hospital. And I acquired one other [call] from a pair — they’re sick,” says Pastor Billy. The hopelessness he felt throughout the years when there was no remedy for AIDS has returned. “It haunts me,” he says.